For almost ten years I had the great fortune of working with such superstars as Drew Barrymore, Channing Tatum, Reese Witherspoon and Chris Hemsworth, to name just a few. I was dubbed the celebrity nutritionist and I loved it!
So much so that I would insist the media use that tag line whenever I was on TV and the radio. I loved the thrill of walking into an A-list celebrity’s home and glimpsing a sneak peek at a way of life many people dream about. And I had so much fun walking red carpets, hopping on private jets, staying in the most beautiful, lavish hotels and eating in private dining rooms at the world’s most elegant restaurants. I truly loved my clients and the time I spent with them. Just to be able to help them feel good, and have that kind of meaningful impact on someone’s life, was hugely satisfying for me.
But then I started to feel like something was missing. I couldn’t tell what it was at the time, but there were moments when I would look around and feel overwhelmed by it all. I had achieved success I never thought possible. I was writing New York Times bestsellers, I was on the cover of magazines and I was regularly featured on TV shows like Good Morning America and Dr. Oz. And still, something just felt off.
I didn’t realize it until much later, but that feeling was a sense that I just wasn’t being me.
I never set out to be a “celebrity nutritionist.” After I graduated college I really had no idea what to do, what kind of job I wanted, what kind of career I wanted to pursue. So what did I do? I backpacked around the world for three years. When I came back, I started writing a blog on how I had learned to let go of dieting and calorie counting, and how to create incredible energy, good skin and stay bloat-free from a holistic lifestyle. I was raised Catholic and had spent months on the road in Buddhist and Hindu countries, which forever changed my perspective of the purpose of life, and what happiness and success really means. I came back to the States hooked on meditation and yoga. I didn’t own a TV and I only saw 1-2 movies a year.
What I wanted to do was help people—through my articles, and by personally responding to every single comment that came through on my blog. I became pretty successful just being myself. Then, I ended up on a movie set and I met my first celebrity. We hit it off. We started working together and then I was introduced to others. The next thing I knew I was moving from NY to LA and working in Hollywood fulltime.
I was admittedly having fun with all the glamour, and so happy to be making a difference. But this new life pulled me out of the community I had started with my blog. Sure I was still writing, but I wasn’t as open, as creative, as sensitive, as giving in the same way as when I first started out. The reality is that I didn’t have the time or the energy. Celebrities, well, require a lot of attention!
Then a shift happened. I was working on my third book, The Beauty Detox Power, and I could feel something change inside me. Without knowing it, I was doing some deep inner work, evaluating and re-evaluating just what I wanted in life. I realized I wanted to do more, to keep an anchor in LA, but also reach out across the States and the globe and expand my influence. I wanted to focus more on emotional and spiritual wellness, which I was discovering was often more important than dietary wellness. I started training others to help out with some of my clients and run my juice bar (now at the Four Seasons) so I could focus on helping others to experience fulfillment.
Then, a big life event solidified all of what was going on in my heart and mind.
My mother passed away suddenly in March 2017, within three days of my son celebrating his first birthday. That moment was the strongest, clearest glimpse into the fragility of life that I had ever experienced. It accelerated all this soul searching I was doing and I made some serious decisions about a number of personal relationships and my life’s work.
A shell around my heart that I didn’t even know was there began to chip and crack. I became truly vulnerable for the first time. And while scary at first, it was also liberating. I began to show people the real me. I began to open up about challenges I’ve had in my life, such as having eating disorders in high school, as well as the flaws and insecurities I never wanted to reveal to anyone.
It was from this place that Solluna was born. It was from this place that the Feel Good movement took root. Solluna is about bringing opposites together to form a whole. What do I mean by that? Solluna, a word that means the uniting of the sun and moon, is about getting back to basics, but it’s also about elegance. It’s about treating our bodies well and strengthening our spirit. It’s about living in harmony with the rhythms of Mother Nature while still keeping a day job or being a stay at home mom.
The Feel Good Movement is a natural outgrowth from the Solluna philosophy. Feeling Good is not about having a picture-perfect life with a flawless body, job, family and so on. That’s all outside stuff, which of course serves a purpose. But, we can have those things and still feel deeply unhappy. So it’s not about what we have, but rather finding a level of inner peace in our perfectly imperfect lives. And when we share that peace with others within a community, we meet each other where we are in life.
The Feel Good Movement is dedicated to helping each other to overcome self-doubt, access true inner peace, embrace the power of love and Feel Good in our unique wholeness.
I really see this next part of my life as a natural outgrowth of the work I’ve already been doing. And I still enjoy working with a number of my celebrity clients. Yet now I really want to focus on working with women and men just like you, from all walks of life in our community, to help you embrace who you are, overcome self-doubt, and live out your dreams.
We walk together, and I am incredibly honored to be on the path supporting each other.
With great love and gratitude,
I lost my dad in 2010 and found your book the Beauty Detox Solution and it saved me from my toxic life.
I followed your advise and became the healthiest and happiest I have ever been.
Moving forward I got married and my husband and I took on too much trying to get ahead in life and business. So now I have found myself overweight, and feeling toxic.
I am looking for inspiration to find myself back in my happy healthy lifestyle.
Thanks so much for sharing your touching story Amanda. It can be difficult to be so vulnerable – I truly believe this is how we grow. I hope you will dive into my new site and new book, which will not only help you stay on course with your eating, but will help you choose foods that will contribute to your emotional health as well. Thanks again for sharing your personal experience with us all and sending you so much love and continued support! Xo